Emotional Purge

My new words to live by

Lately I've been doing a lot of thinking. Which is sometimes not so good for me. Because it usually gets me down. But, I know that if I never do this sort of thinking, I'll never re-evaluate my life and I'll be stuck in a rut and won't have the ability to prosper.

I figured out that I have a lot of fair-weather friends, so to say. It's like I'm the only one to make an effort into our friendships. And if they aren't willing to make the effort to talk to be back, then I say



I know these friends are busy with their own lives, jobs and families but it wouldn't kill you to send a text? Or whatever.

I have online friends spread throughout the country (thanks to the lovely and wonderful Marine Corps) but I wish I had one person, real or online, to connect to and chat with and have fun with like I did with these old friends of mine. I know I have Jordan, but seriously, I can't get fashion advice from him or gossip about celebrities (he goes on a HUGE rant about it) or sing songs with in the car.

I guess I've come to realize that the only people I can really depend on are my husband and daughter.

A lot of this has to do with us moving back to our crap-tacular county and realizing that everyone I graduated high school with are all stuck in ruts and live their lives in a bubble just getting by. I don't want that. I don't need that. I don't deserve that. Everyone here is so fine with just settling. Working menial jobs and living menial lives, most of them don't know there's a whole world waiting for them out there!!

I know people change and grow apart but I never thought it would happen with me and my friends. We have been through a lot together. And all of a sudden they wanna throw it all away? I'll pass.

So I'll just take this one day at a time. I know there's an amazing friend out there for me. I just need to find them. And until then, I'm making a mental note to tell myself this everyday: